Thursday, October 26, 2006
Where's Insomnia Theatre when I need it??!?
OK, I must be back into the swing of things since this is the second time in the past 7 days that I've not been able to sleep but it's been far too late to take any pills to help...
Wednesday, October 18, 2006
Dam flare-ups!!!
This is the worst one I think i've EVER had!!! I can NOT stop scratching!!! EVERYWHERE!!
I can't stand this $hit!!!!!!!!!
I can't stand this $hit!!!!!!!!!
Sunday, October 08, 2006
Sand & Stone
TWO FRIENDS WERE WALKING THROUGH THE DESERT. DURING SOME POINT OF THE JOURNEY THEY HAD AN ARGUMENT AND ONE FRIEND SLAPPED THE OTHER ONE IN THE FACE.
THE ONE WHO GOT SLAPPED WAS HURT, BUT WITHOUT SAYING ANYTHING, WROTE IN THE SAND:
TODAY MY BEST FRIEND SLAPPED ME IN THE FACE.
THEY KEPT ON WALKING, UNTIL THEY FOUND AN OASIS, WHERE THEY DECIDED TO TAKE A BATH.
THE ONE WHO HAD BEEN SLAPPED GOT STUCK IN THE MIRE AND STARTED DROWNING, BUT THE FRIEND SAVED HIM.
AFTER HE RECOVERED FROM THE NEAR DROWNING, HE WROTE ON A STONE:
TODAY MY BEST FRIEND SAVED MY LIFE.
THE FRIEND WHO HAD SLAPPED AND SAVED HIS BEST FRIEND ASKED HIM, "AFTER I HURT YOU, YOU WROTE IN THE SAND AND NOW, YOU WRITE ON A STONE, WHY?"
THE OTHER FRIEND REPLIED "WHEN SOMEONE HURTS US WE SHOULD WRITE IT DOWN IN SAND WHERE WINDS OF FORGIVENESS CAN ERASE IT AWAY. BUT, WHEN SOMEONE DOES SOMETHING GOOD FOR US, WE MUST ENGRAVE IT IN STONE WHERE NO WIND CAN EVER ERASE IT."
LEARN TO WRITE YOUR HURTS IN THE SAND AND TO CARVE YOUR BENEFITS and BLESSINGS IN STONE.
THEY SAY IT TAKES A MINUTE TO FIND A SPECIAL PERSON, AN HOUR TO APPRECIATE THEM, A DAY TO LOVE THEM, BUT THEN AN ENTIRE LIFE TO FORGET THEM.
THE ONE WHO GOT SLAPPED WAS HURT, BUT WITHOUT SAYING ANYTHING, WROTE IN THE SAND:
TODAY MY BEST FRIEND SLAPPED ME IN THE FACE.
THEY KEPT ON WALKING, UNTIL THEY FOUND AN OASIS, WHERE THEY DECIDED TO TAKE A BATH.
THE ONE WHO HAD BEEN SLAPPED GOT STUCK IN THE MIRE AND STARTED DROWNING, BUT THE FRIEND SAVED HIM.
AFTER HE RECOVERED FROM THE NEAR DROWNING, HE WROTE ON A STONE:
TODAY MY BEST FRIEND SAVED MY LIFE.
THE FRIEND WHO HAD SLAPPED AND SAVED HIS BEST FRIEND ASKED HIM, "AFTER I HURT YOU, YOU WROTE IN THE SAND AND NOW, YOU WRITE ON A STONE, WHY?"
THE OTHER FRIEND REPLIED "WHEN SOMEONE HURTS US WE SHOULD WRITE IT DOWN IN SAND WHERE WINDS OF FORGIVENESS CAN ERASE IT AWAY. BUT, WHEN SOMEONE DOES SOMETHING GOOD FOR US, WE MUST ENGRAVE IT IN STONE WHERE NO WIND CAN EVER ERASE IT."
LEARN TO WRITE YOUR HURTS IN THE SAND AND TO CARVE YOUR BENEFITS and BLESSINGS IN STONE.
THEY SAY IT TAKES A MINUTE TO FIND A SPECIAL PERSON, AN HOUR TO APPRECIATE THEM, A DAY TO LOVE THEM, BUT THEN AN ENTIRE LIFE TO FORGET THEM.
Friday, October 06, 2006
Another ARGH!!
My dad fell, sent himself and was admitted to the hospital on Sunday so my mind's not been in its proper form. He has actually moved himself from walker to wheelchair AFTER convincing the doctors that there was nothing wrong with him--the MRIs, tests & x-rays agreed--and walking on his own. His doctors, therapists, my family & I just can't get through to him that if you don't use your muscles, you'll lose them! So now he's a bigger PITA than ever. Like my mom or I can pick up the wheelchair to put it in my van??
Forgive me for my lack of empathy towards him but it's his own dam fault...
Forgive me for my lack of empathy towards him but it's his own dam fault...
Monday, October 02, 2006
My Sun Sign's Karmic Tasks
Cancer: Karmic Life Lessons
Cancer is an emotionally intuitive, caring and nurturing energy. A real homebody, Cancer prefers staying in to going out, since staying in provides all the comforts of home: good cooking, a comfy couch, family and friends. Family is one of Cancer's great interests and concerns in life, whether the connection is positive or troubled. One of Cancer's most famous traits is being sensitive and moody. All that deep emotionalism can easily translate itself into over-sensitivity to the emotional states of others. If a Cancer is around someone who is irritable or tense, suddenly Cancer is irritable and tense as well. It is most important for a Cancer to learn to build better personal boundaries to protect against this sensitive nature. If Cancers can learn to emotionally self-regulate a bit better, no one will ever have cause to call them moody again!
Just because they're emotional doesn't mean they're pushovers. In fact, Cancers can be quite tenacious and they love getting their way. If kindness doesn't work, they just may resort to emotional manipulations to try to get things going. If they end up not getting what they were after, they can become vindictive. Cancers are excellent at holding a grudge, but must try to stop and ask themselves, "What do I gain from maintaining a grudge against someone?" The answer is, nothing. Keeping anger alive and thriving inside oneself is a hugely taxing endeavor, a real drain on energy -- and has no real payoff. Cancer would do well to remember that the next time things don't go as planned.
Cancer's deeply emotional nature comes from its ruling Element, Water, and Planet, the Moon. Water refers to the depths of our unconscious minds, and under the Moon's cool light, everything is shadowed, subjective. Cancer is very in touch with its emotions, but may tend to give more time to negative ones and has a tendency to brood. Again, why always look on the dark side of things? Like the Chinese symbols of yin and yang, life is a balance of light and dark, positive and negative, active and passive. To lean too far to one extreme is to upset the natural balance. One of Cancer's strengths is lending others a nurturing, sympathetic ear; perhaps when brooding sets in, it would help for Cancer to turn that energy outward, away from the self and toward someone else. Feeling sorry for oneself doesn't do any good; like nursing a grudge, it merely amounts to time and energy wasted.
Cancer places a high value on security of all kinds; whether it's financial or romantic, Cancer wants to know it can count on the important things in life. This love of security and the attendant fear of the unknown can result in quite a possessive streak. Possessiveness is just one more thing that is a waste of one's personal energy. Material possessions don't make us more or less worthy; a lover's fidelity can't be assured by clinging to them possessively. Cancer must learn to accept a certain level of unpredictability in life, as the one thing that never changes is change itself.
Aries possesses an abundance of the light, energetic joie de vivre that Cancer may lack, and can teach Cancer to experience emotions in an immediate way -- and then let them go. Libra can teach Cancer about balancing those turbulent emotions, and Capricorn can show Cancer the benefits of abandoning emotions in favor of determined hard work.
Cancer is an emotionally intuitive, caring and nurturing energy. A real homebody, Cancer prefers staying in to going out, since staying in provides all the comforts of home: good cooking, a comfy couch, family and friends. Family is one of Cancer's great interests and concerns in life, whether the connection is positive or troubled. One of Cancer's most famous traits is being sensitive and moody. All that deep emotionalism can easily translate itself into over-sensitivity to the emotional states of others. If a Cancer is around someone who is irritable or tense, suddenly Cancer is irritable and tense as well. It is most important for a Cancer to learn to build better personal boundaries to protect against this sensitive nature. If Cancers can learn to emotionally self-regulate a bit better, no one will ever have cause to call them moody again!
Just because they're emotional doesn't mean they're pushovers. In fact, Cancers can be quite tenacious and they love getting their way. If kindness doesn't work, they just may resort to emotional manipulations to try to get things going. If they end up not getting what they were after, they can become vindictive. Cancers are excellent at holding a grudge, but must try to stop and ask themselves, "What do I gain from maintaining a grudge against someone?" The answer is, nothing. Keeping anger alive and thriving inside oneself is a hugely taxing endeavor, a real drain on energy -- and has no real payoff. Cancer would do well to remember that the next time things don't go as planned.
Cancer's deeply emotional nature comes from its ruling Element, Water, and Planet, the Moon. Water refers to the depths of our unconscious minds, and under the Moon's cool light, everything is shadowed, subjective. Cancer is very in touch with its emotions, but may tend to give more time to negative ones and has a tendency to brood. Again, why always look on the dark side of things? Like the Chinese symbols of yin and yang, life is a balance of light and dark, positive and negative, active and passive. To lean too far to one extreme is to upset the natural balance. One of Cancer's strengths is lending others a nurturing, sympathetic ear; perhaps when brooding sets in, it would help for Cancer to turn that energy outward, away from the self and toward someone else. Feeling sorry for oneself doesn't do any good; like nursing a grudge, it merely amounts to time and energy wasted.
Cancer places a high value on security of all kinds; whether it's financial or romantic, Cancer wants to know it can count on the important things in life. This love of security and the attendant fear of the unknown can result in quite a possessive streak. Possessiveness is just one more thing that is a waste of one's personal energy. Material possessions don't make us more or less worthy; a lover's fidelity can't be assured by clinging to them possessively. Cancer must learn to accept a certain level of unpredictability in life, as the one thing that never changes is change itself.
Aries possesses an abundance of the light, energetic joie de vivre that Cancer may lack, and can teach Cancer to experience emotions in an immediate way -- and then let them go. Libra can teach Cancer about balancing those turbulent emotions, and Capricorn can show Cancer the benefits of abandoning emotions in favor of determined hard work.
Sunday, October 01, 2006
Should have been a good day...
Mom called at 7:20 this morning to say that dad fell so she took him to the hospital and they admitted him. I haven't spoken with her since thisx afternoon, but it was HIS idea to be taken to the hospital. He's not in pain but he has no feeling or movement in his right leg--the side he's had trouble with ever since his stroke.
So talking with my sister is scary, as she thinks that he will no longer be able to take the stairs. We've been telling them since his stroke to build a bedroom on the first floor but I understand his hesitancy since losing his driving priviledges was hard on him, so this must be even harder--losing your independence is one of the most difficult things to deal with. :(
So I'm waiting to hear back from mom on the prognosis.
Today was Aaron's homecoming but they lost in the last few seconds--they were tied at zero until there was less than a minute left in the game. But the weather was perfect--almost too hot for October! ;)
So talking with my sister is scary, as she thinks that he will no longer be able to take the stairs. We've been telling them since his stroke to build a bedroom on the first floor but I understand his hesitancy since losing his driving priviledges was hard on him, so this must be even harder--losing your independence is one of the most difficult things to deal with. :(
So I'm waiting to hear back from mom on the prognosis.
Today was Aaron's homecoming but they lost in the last few seconds--they were tied at zero until there was less than a minute left in the game. But the weather was perfect--almost too hot for October! ;)
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